throwing up your memory

I don't even know what to write. Why do I even write on this blog? For me? For you guys? For someone in the future? I don't know.. All I do know is that I'm sick. Sick and twisted and rotting dying inside. I feel like my mind and my heart are rotting away with … Continue reading throwing up your memory

pause button

Two weeks down still miserable. I wish I could just disappear. When there is a situation and only 2 out of the 20 possible scenarios are positive then whats the chance a positive one will happen? You know... life should really have a pause button. A button you can press that will just take you … Continue reading pause button

really fucked up dreams – addition 6 + a bunch of other stuff on my mind

*warning. This post contains details on sexual violence and assault* Nightmares. Nightmares and self hate. Great combinations for a night of little sleep. The movie was good, great even, but the nightmares that followed were not. I could not escape the game. I had to choose over and over, but nothing I ever chose sufficed. … Continue reading really fucked up dreams – addition 6 + a bunch of other stuff on my mind