cat piss pants

Life update: Want to know something absolutely disgusting? Today I had to go to work in a pair of pants that was covered in cat piss because my cats are awful and I only have one pair of work pants. No amount of perfume can cover this up. I even tried scrubbing them with soap … Continue reading cat piss pants

reach nirvana with me

"You twitch in your sleep." Well yes that would either be the nightmares, the anxiety, or both thank you for noticing. "What the fuck was that weird gasp thing" Oh you know.. just me being a weird person. "Bruh you're like crazy crazy" Oh you don't even know the half of it. "I like my … Continue reading reach nirvana with me

week 18

I'm trying to think of the baby less, but it isn't working.  It's a kicker now.  I'm ready for it to be felt on the outside, or rather, M is.  He's obsessed with the idea. I've grown used to the idea of being pregnant.  I can go through the day and think "yeah, my uterus … Continue reading week 18


My mental health is getting really really bad again. Maybe I shouldn't have stopped taking my Prozac. Maybe it's because of Lil Chip. Maybe it's because no matter what I do I can't find joy in anything. I don't know if I love anyone anymore. Not the way I used to at least. I don't … Continue reading relapse