don’t make me break your heart

The demanding.. it needs to stop. This week my head has been treacherous. Words have been circling through my mind over and over. They don't stop. Your words, my words, his words, her words, their opinions, their words. It's exhausting. Too many times I've opened my computer to write something here, but of all the … Continue reading don’t make me break your heart

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cat piss pants

Life update: Want to know something absolutely disgusting? Today I had to go to work in a pair of pants that was covered in cat piss because my cats are awful and I only have one pair of work pants. No amount of perfume can cover this up. I even tried scrubbing them with soap … Continue reading cat piss pants

fester

The anger is festering this morning. I can't explain it, but I am just so so so livid. It's one of those calm angers that starts in your gut and bubbles up like a lava lamp until you are are shaking, dying to explode, dying to lash out at everyone around you, dying to hurt, … Continue reading fester

exist forever

"What are you doing tonight?" "Nothing smart" The screen of my crappy overused phone lights up, the one my little sister lent me while I'm too poor to buy a new one. A message from my other sister is on the screen. "What are you doing tonight?" I look down at the metal pressing deep … Continue reading exist forever

relapse

My mental health is getting really really bad again. Maybe I shouldn't have stopped taking my Prozac. Maybe it's because of Lil Chip. Maybe it's because no matter what I do I can't find joy in anything. I don't know if I love anyone anymore. Not the way I used to at least. I don't … Continue reading relapse