no pain, where’s the gain?

Constantly lost without the struggle.  For once, things are going well.  I love both jobs.  My schedule is working out nicely.  But I feel lost.  I feel like I have no aim, no goal, no purpose.  Without struggle, without pain, I feel like I am crawling nowhere.  Like I am still in the dirt. M … Continue reading no pain, where’s the gain?

2 weeks notice

I, Lex, am notifying the management of Unnamed Pizza Company that June 4th, 2019 will be my last shift with this company.  I have greatly enjoyed my time as an employee working alongside the staff at Unnamed and consider it to have been a pinnacle in my working career.  The experiences, skills, knowledge and patience … Continue reading 2 weeks notice

fester

The anger is festering this morning. I can't explain it, but I am just so so so livid. It's one of those calm angers that starts in your gut and bubbles up like a lava lamp until you are are shaking, dying to explode, dying to lash out at everyone around you, dying to hurt, … Continue reading fester

new normal

This is my new normal. Staying up late having deep and pointless conversations with my love. This is my new normal. Not being able to fit into any clothes. This is my new normal. Every penny spent is stressed over because I have bigger things to stress over. This is my new normal. Having to … Continue reading new normal