my mom has cancer

Welp.  It's been a tumultuous day. I'm going to try and recant the conversations between my mom and I as best as I can honestly.  When people recount arguments, they always try and make themselves look better.  I was sassy on the phone.  I was rude.  I have regrets. The other night, we went out … Continue reading my mom has cancer

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oh god the beach

Fuck fuck it's summer and that means hot weather and being outside and sweating hella and water and the beach and my makeup disagrees with all of this! Summer means hating that I have trich. It means constantly worrying that I'm sweating off my makeup, constantly stressed about hitting something and rubbing it off, the … Continue reading oh god the beach

fester

The anger is festering this morning. I can't explain it, but I am just so so so livid. It's one of those calm angers that starts in your gut and bubbles up like a lava lamp until you are are shaking, dying to explode, dying to lash out at everyone around you, dying to hurt, … Continue reading fester

new normal

This is my new normal. Staying up late having deep and pointless conversations with my love. This is my new normal. Not being able to fit into any clothes. This is my new normal. Every penny spent is stressed over because I have bigger things to stress over. This is my new normal. Having to … Continue reading new normal