oh god the beach

Fuck fuck it's summer and that means hot weather and being outside and sweating hella and water and the beach and my makeup disagrees with all of this! Summer means hating that I have trich. It means constantly worrying that I'm sweating off my makeup, constantly stressed about hitting something and rubbing it off, the … Continue reading oh god the beach

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throwing up your memory

I don't even know what to write. Why do I even write on this blog? For me? For you guys? For someone in the future? I don't know.. All I do know is that I'm sick. Sick and twisted and rotting dying inside. I feel like my mind and my heart are rotting away with … Continue reading throwing up your memory

fester

The anger is festering this morning. I can't explain it, but I am just so so so livid. It's one of those calm angers that starts in your gut and bubbles up like a lava lamp until you are are shaking, dying to explode, dying to lash out at everyone around you, dying to hurt, … Continue reading fester

new normal

This is my new normal. Staying up late having deep and pointless conversations with my love. This is my new normal. Not being able to fit into any clothes. This is my new normal. Every penny spent is stressed over because I have bigger things to stress over. This is my new normal. Having to … Continue reading new normal

exist forever

"What are you doing tonight?" "Nothing smart" The screen of my crappy overused phone lights up, the one my little sister lent me while I'm too poor to buy a new one. A message from my other sister is on the screen. "What are you doing tonight?" I look down at the metal pressing deep … Continue reading exist forever