and im out of school

I took my last final today.  That leaves me with two A's... and an F.  My mental health doesn't cooperate with school.  School is hell, honestly.  I'd love to get a teaching license the year after next, guess who can't even perform basic mental tasks currently.  I can work and that's about it.  When I … Continue reading and im out of school

my reality isn’t very real

"Why is your neighbor staring at us?" "No, he isn't.  Only you can see him." "But that's your neighbor" "Your perception of him, maybe" Isn't reality just our perception of the world around us?  Why would that make my hallucinations unreal and yet provide validity to something that just one man saw.  If a tree … Continue reading my reality isn’t very real

like a toddler hitting a light switch

Stability. "Do you consider yourself to be emotionally and mentally stable?"  The student OB asked, her little notebook in hand, preparing to write down incriminating evidence of psychological warfare in the mind of this pregnant mentally ill patient. "Well, sometimes I still struggle, but with the help of frequent therapy and medications, I consider myself … Continue reading like a toddler hitting a light switch

i closed

Dumb things make me happy sometimes.  Tonight, it was that I closed at work.  Who knew that mopping a floor could bring so much joy? Work gives me such a sense of accomplishment.  For no apparent reason.  Something about having a list of things to do and being able to go home and eat a … Continue reading i closed